what I feel now

 what I am Feeling

Well, My life is a shit, every day I wake up and have to go to school, there happen same thing almost every day, and When I remember that I don’t have money to leave it I want more to leave my life and go to other place, that you know what place is that.

 Well, I wake up at 6:30am o’ clock and I use my clothes and I try to stay good and I try to keep myself good, I try to don’t cry every day so when I come to school, front at all my friends I show myself good and I show then that my life is great, I show then that I love my life and I make then think that I’m happy all the time, Unless that I’m really bad at this day, what happen sometimes.

 Lately I feel me bad, I miss my childhood Innocence, when I didn’t know how life is and how it broke the life of everyone, the worst nightmares happen in adolescence, and the badly thing is that it’s real and you just want to cry, it’s what I feel all the time, I want to back to my childhood and I feel that I just lost it, I can’t back there anymore, so I just think that the life start when you innocence is over, when the childhood, so I feel that I could have used more but now it’s over and I can’t have my innocence back, I can’t feel me free anymore.

 Well, I remember that when I come to puberty I couldn’t understand why I didn’t wanting to joke with the other  kids, I didn’t guessing it funny, I just was wanting to do other things, It’s like I was starting to like girls and started to think then attractive, well, It’s good, But it was all new to me and I just start to understand the puberty much years later, and to be honest, I can understand only my present like three years later, so I really can understand clear what happened with me, and to be honest, I can’t understand what’s happening  with me right now, I hope can understand it in three years.

 So this is my first real post Over here and since the next posting I will talk about my life chronologically, starting by my childhood, Today I just told what I’m feeling right now, so I guess that you can’t understand me, because I own can’t understand it, I just guess my life embarrassing. Thank you to your attention and I see you at my next post. J